Jingle bells

Merry Christmas!

Whats more important in life, a job and self independence or a love life? I always thought people whom I love were my priority. I never took my career as seriously as perhaps I should have.

But, now i will. Have suddenly realised that this is what i am meant to do. Everyone has their own parameters. There are things you might want to do, the essence of love might be diffrerent, the moments spend together might have different values. It is not the same for all.

When is the time to call it quits? How long do you hold on to? Does the man of your dreams never exist? Are they all the same?

I do not have answers to it. Perhaps i never can think the way the other person does. Cannot understand why he cannot be straightforward about his feelings, dont know why he cannot express his emotions, why his friends are his life? Is he not ready to take on a new life, a different set of emotions and make it his own? Why does he have to cling to his past?

A pattern that I will never understand. Women are more opionated and true in terms of what they want. Whatever they do, they are more attached to it than anyone. No wonder they make better workers and relationship builders.

But, i cant let go my dream and fall into the pattern of life. I cannot be someone who will disappear with time. I am not routine. I will not ever be.