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I do not know what life is all about. There are certain moments, when you sit back and think about life. What is it all about?

My uncle expired and it was a big shock. Am paranoid about cetain things in life and loosing peole who i have been close to is one of them. It scares me to death. Within the last few moths , i have lost 2 very close persons in my life, Naresh my friend and Chatni mesho, family friend of ours, but he is more close to me than most of my relatives. It was a big loss. Since then each and everyday i have thought about them. It makes me go crazy. With this now, i cant think how with time all i will do is think of people who are leaving me.

With so many people in the house during Christmas time, I did it well, perhaps for the first time. i didnt go mad. I tried hard to be the epitome of an hostess, so i went along well and had fun eventually. There are things that i have learnt here, and treating strangers is one of them. I mean those i am not friends with but are of my bf's or family. My role has changed, from the girl to the woman who is in charge of the house.

One thing is for sure, I have learnt to appreciate my mom more than ever, realising how tough it had been on her to take care of the family and do her job and then have millions other requests to do. I have never turned around and thanked her, thinking it was all my due. Times i have realised but expressing is so important.

January is not only the beginning of a new ear for me , it is one of the vital years where you do not want things to go wrong. My last year in school and very important. By the time I graduate in December, would need a job. So keeping my fingers crossed. Need lots of luck!