wow

Back home and happy. Guess what got an A in Matt's paper........gosh, am so happy. Worked but never expected it.

Its like winning an oscar!!! Wow. So, celebrating cooking chicken for dinner and am going to enjoy every bit of it.

Ok, gotta check on my chicken....smells good.

Cold

Man , its cold. Very cold.

So lazy, inspite of knowing that i have just too much to finish, have not studied the whole morning. Got up late and called home.

Back to work and class......will reach home around 9pm. A little nervous, have to finish a lot. Cannot concentrate these days.

The campus looks cool, with all the lights. Will have to get some pics. Everyone's so busy these days. Exams......the last few days.

Wuhoo!

Blogging can be so fun, not because i blog but more so because you can read about so many people.

Yes, i do surf blogs and mostly of my friends. It is nice to see how people are feeling and doing right now.

Have lots to do in the next 15 days. Have not driven my car yet. Still scared. But have to learn up pretty soon.

The good part if that i have reduced over the one month. Guess, I am doing well because i do not get the urge to eat all that junk again. When I do, i have it though, but thats very rare. Eating all healthy and doing good. Could not go the gym this week as am working on the weekend.

My shopping for Thanksgiving actually made me happier, not becuse i got my formal trouser but realised I am one size lesser.

Rhitwika got married today and am so happy for her. Think she is coming to California, makes me happy will have a friend around. Hopefully she remains good and doesnt change.

Cant wait to finish off my assignments.........gotta study....buh bye.

Thanksgiving

The last two days have been more than exciting. Day before yesterday, got my car! My first car!

Fun part, cannot drive very well yet, am still scared after that crash. So, will go out every Sunday with Srinath to learn it up.

Yesterday was Thanksgiving and it could not be better spent that what i did. We all went to Christina's house and had a great time. My first Thanksgiving and more than that my first time going to meet and see an american family. It was really nice.

The drive to Frederick , almost the southern most part of Oklahoma took us more than two hours, The drive was amazing, as Win drove , we chattered all along the way. Reaching her house, settled in the laps of calm and serenity, it was peaceful. Met the whole family, with grandpa and grandma, aunts and jovial cousins and of course Christina's parents , sis and her!

It was fun as we had our breakfast and gathered around to talk to one another and play games. As for the 20 people in the house, names had to be known. So, we all had our name tags!

Lunch was an event in it self, with turkey, ham, bean casserole, cranberry sauce, sweet potatoe dish, my favorite mashed potatoe and corn, it was a gala mean, which we all enjoyed.

Afternoon was spent with surprises, honing our shooting skills on a poor can of dr. pepper. A walk to the cotton field and time for dessrts. Yum, Yum. To end it all, we packed up out to go's also. I had my favorite mashed potatoe!

On the way back home and spending time with such a wonderful family, where we not only had fun and an exposure to a family here, it was the memory, love and warmthness that is treasured. Hugging and shaking hands later, left for the city in the evening. As the waved back at us, the whole family smiling and cheering, i left the family misty eyed, reminding me of my family.

One year in USA almost and all has been good!

At last!

A fight that continued the whole night, and cooled down with the morning breeze!

My car paper is still not done,will do tomorrow. But with a terrible headache did not go to the class the whole day to realise that I have more work to do that i can even think of.

So, its time to rock and roll..........study, study and back to study!!! One more month to go and this semester is done! Good, huh?

The best part, I did find out time today to spend with my bf. It did help. Oh, have to mention Arun here, he is one funny person and of course a person with whom you can talk!

One more lesson learnt, trust few poeple, specially when all they try to do is spoil your peace and happiness, fuming over your good and so...............er.....horrible!

Thank you God

Have a lot to tell. Well, yesterday was diwali night in the university, went on very well.As for me had an unplanned hair cut. I liked it actually!

Today, another great day, a litle shopping but all quality stuff. My formal black pant and a leather jacket. That was cool!

Looking back, i guess it is not what i like the most. I am thankful and specially on this Thanksgiving that I have such a lovely friend in him. Funny thing to put in the blog, but since I am writing here, why not. He is the best human being that I have ever met. I have always wanted and prayed that i wanted a good human being as my bf, and I have one!

I just can wish and hope that he gets what he wants his way. This Thanksgiving , i am thankful for the lovely family that i have, who have been with me no matter what(even when they hated my decisions),a cute little sister and my boy friend, who is the coolest. Touchwood! Couldn't have asked for more.

Thank you GOD!

Dilemma

Dilemma. Not sure if I should take the break and go to Chicago for winters or just be here and enjoy the vacation.

The reason for going there, does not exist any more, so would probably be a good idea not to go and waste my money now. But also given the fact that I love that city I would want to go and have some fun!

But since none of my friends will be here during the break, what am I supposed to do here alone?

Since the moving seems all planned, a little nervous. Hope things work out right, the entire reason for all this hum drum.

Working, but will go for dinner tonight.

finally

My couch is in and finally it looks more of a home than a temporary place where i am huddled for the time being. It is not the best looking couch but a good deal and am fine with it. Was not sure if i could make the trip again to keep on looking at the new arrivals and then take mine.

For the next one year , it will do it's job.

Finally, got all the stuffs i needed, and am happy. Wish i could skip the work for a little while and take some time out.

My cars here, got some stuffs for it too. Just have to drive now and am scared. Will try it tonight after work.

A little tension crawled in and I hate asking money back from home for my next semesters tution. I know when converted, it is just sooooooooooo much. I hate it. I wish I could be efficient enough to juggle work (i mean more work , like off campus) and also get my grades. Most persons i have seen, dip on their grades.

Not sure what to do, very fickle these days, once i decide to do off campus from next semester and then suddenly realise I actually cannot do so much. i have to study. Weired but true, It is lot of work in mass communication.

Had become joke with my nerd friends, that all I do is study. Not true. I like my time and space too. Of course , I have to study also, that's why am here. Not sure if their course does not need to or they copy it off from someone. Funny!

With all this rigidity and craziness, am not sure where i am going........are those who are working a lot gaining more or will gain more in the final run? Or will i make it? Time, that Time............will say!

Wait.......is all i can do.

u got it

The negative side of taking responsibilties and some more work is the chance that you can be bombarded with criticism.

One of the main things is to realise the fact that you cannot please everyone and there will always be people who will come up with nothing good but all trash. Some are true and it is wise to accept it and improve next time and for the rest, you listen and forget it. It would keep you much happy!

So, do what you have to do, and then just forget it. The crticism and all the harsh words are just part of the job, sooner you understand the better!

car arriving!

Sad, very sad...who wouldnt be? Had a fight with my boy friend.

I am not sure, but at times when it is all lonely here or the days are not so good, i wish he was here. I came here, to bridge the distance and got caught up again. There are times when i love my privacy and the fact that he is there but i have a life which i lead independently.Other times, i hate it.

A small little silly thing can be of so much of bad taste more so because all you do is try to fix it up via the phone.

Better, after a bad day.......he is coming tomorrow, so is my car!

GUESS WHAT.................today's 15 november!!!! I am done with my project and that is such a big relief!

I am glad i finally did it.........one big lesson learnt. That things which seem impossible, might not be so. All it needs is taking one step at a time.

A month more to go and this semesters done too. Now, who doesnt want that?

Have to do my storyboard, the TV commercial and the radio spot. That is exciting!!!!

Oh, its freezing cold today, went out for my class and came back with eyes and nose watering. It was bad. Cant wait for my car........I guess will have to learn it fast. Today is my day!!

friday night out

Yesterday had my friday night out!

Came back from work and got a call from Naparat and Win for our friday dinner. I was too tired to cook my dinner and thought of calling them up, but did not want to bother them. So, the call from them was more than welcome.

A hearty dinner at Win's lovely apartment, watched TV and gulped down all the ice cream I could with the promise that i would invite them soon for a party at my place.

It is nice and am getting used to the fact that Friday night we gather around and have a nice time. Also i want to save sometime for myself alone. Came back home early and enjoyed my long 12 hour sleep!!!

Nothing could be better. I am excited that will be free after 15 nov, but the idea is scary with 3 days to go, i have to finish that massive project!

Going to Thanksgiving In Michelle's and Christina's house. It was really nice of them to invite me and i am sooo excited. I always wanted to be a part of thanksgiving and now I will be. It is my first thanksgiving in USA, and though we do not have it in India have always been part of it through films and television.

A sunny Saturday and lots of work in my to do list.

facebook

Another great morning!

While i sit and sip my cup of tea, i wonder how am i going to finish up my business plan. More i think, more complicated it gets. No matter what, will do my best and finish it off. Am doing a magazine based in Chicago.

Also have to do the lay out for the newsletter and hand it over for publication.

But today's friday and it's my day!

The facebook is amazing a thing, the idea of it simply amazes me. The brouhaha over it is worthwhile. Student power is the in thing, they can do wonders and also create it. As for me, i did the newspaper story for the facebook for my university in the campus newspaper. But now that it is a part of the facebook and people go wild scribbling in each others walls and poking one another......it is fun!

The good news is , am making friends through it. There are times when you do not do the right thing at the right moment. The facebook comes as the compensation, you can still do it later. I can often tell people what i want, because in classes inter personal communication rarely happens. Making friends, so thats good.

Also did I mention, will be freelancing for Telegraph (www.telegraphindia.com), which makes me so happy. Though am not sure when I am going to write, but will squeeze in some time am sure.

Way to go girl!!!

The Calm

Have to tell you this, that my living room looks so cool. you can just walk in and say , this is the place where you can be creative.

Though I like my corner of the bed, window, candles and study lamp. I enjoyed more of the formal study settings today. My study table with its change of place, is so perfect now. So, spent my whole day doing up my stuff in the formal yet so great a corner.

Have lots more to do, i mean finish off stuffs, but with the change of settings its starting over again and refreshing.

My evening was well spent in the gym. Amazing isnt it? How i manage to get to the gym, am just so lazy to get out of home. But once i manage to do that, i enjoy every moment of it.

I always feel theres a place in your life which is truly reflects you and where you can find the peace. Funnily enough, here it is the gym for me. After my 40 minutes of the treadmill, i walked around and sat in the basketball seating area and just sat there for a while. I can feel the calmness there and perhaps can meditate much better than when i struggle to do it at home.

Going good! Good news going back home in summer for a month i guess.

my corner

Creativity is one things that always turns me on.

All the projects finally turn me into a nerd but i enjoy it. Now with more projects, the last one of media management and 2 more of my advertising, its a great feeling to suddenly turn into a creative person plotting advertising strategies

The feeling of my corner is something i have always wanted and cherished all my life. Now, that i share my apartment with a room mate and the dact that it has only one bed room is at times lack of privacy and creativity. But then instead of spending my entire salary on the apartment , may be I can spend it on my wishlist.

This morning, changed the arrangement of the living room, got so tired seeing the same stuff everyday. The bedroom, no matter how much i try cannot be done, its just perfect. Suddenly the house seems to have a character of its own and a nook for me. Something has to be mine, what if it is just a corner. A place where i can think and do my own.

Cant wait to move my couch in..........that would make it so perfect!

Feeling great, finally my pics get uploaded! I sometimes wonder, are online journals as close to your heat as the real diary writing. How free can one be when it is so public? Unless of course you can hide the link..............

Have free hours for myself, just cant belive that! Awesome.......so dinner's done and will read a few poems and then sleep. Have not done that in a while.

Oh, the pic that will upload here, Joy changed it to black and white, have to admit his aesthetic sense, definitely it looks better.

Finally, its over

Back from class. A big pat on my back for finally finishing of my two projects. The bonus point project made me go mad, finally things have fallen into places and it is all done.

Back home and a little sad. Have no clue why, missing home........my friends, all hotch potch. Yet, things are fine, yet there are moments i dont know what to do. I crave for the solitude, yet there are times like these, have aweired mixed kind of feelings.

Was too busy for the last few days, so finally will upload the pics. My Haloween here, went fine. actually saw the decorations but celebrated it in the class itself. One of my classmates brought abasket full of candies. I loved the idea anf it was definitely fun. As for me took a Hersheys packet of Nuggets, my favorite- almond one. Shared it in work (law computer lab) and in class.

It is Novemer, yet winters not here. But the leaves will soon be gone and I love the color now. Oh, have to tell that i have a wishlist finally. My couch is still not home, hope i get a good one soon. Cheap and ok one for me. Have thought of getting a good digital camera for photography. Not sure If i can afford now, but yessssssssssssss, someday.

Too many mixed confused reactions these days about my internship. No clue if i can get one, why cant i work in one. Hopefully it gets solved, coz i really want one.

Should have a gala dinner for my hard work......did nothing but treated myself to the sinful vending machine. Once in a while...........thts ok.

Cant wait for the projects to get over. I need my break!!!!!!!!!

wishlist

Suddenly am all lonely......theres a big void which gets awakened at times. Exams are all i have.......but no matter what it is, it cannot be the comfort right now.

I am sitting on my bed with books all around me and yet cannot read...........have pics to download yet I cannot do it.

A strange feeling. A friend of mine is coming ti California and that makes me so happy......at least can talk over sometimes if not meet now.

Lots of things to do and more thing to think. I am lucky in a lot of way but just that I am sometimes deep down in the void.

Funny part , i suddenly have a wish list. I need to have something to calm me down. Hmmm, things are fine , hope gets better. Wuhoo!!!