No , no headings this time, actually couldn’t get the appropriate one. Am dried out with names of movies, which I usually use as my headlines!!! May be Tammana , would be the right one. May be not. So , here am I , stuck in this dead air , trying to pose all happy with my stupid and dead boring days , as I try to act intellectual and all set to become a freelancer.
Oops, all dreams and no reality. So, a self declared addict to the net is all I do for my non existent living. It is not that I am not busy , I end up doing a lot of things , though which I am not sure is helping me to grow. The mails and friends, do all they can to keep me going , hushing me every time , I have a chance to fall into the pit of despair and frustration. Yeah , so am planning a lot these days , not that I did not for the last 25 years. A chance to dream and think big... to do more than I can think. Woof!!!
I try not to over eat , and that’s exactly the problem when u stay at home and is served platter of food , all ready to gobble down , not trying to think of the increasing waistline. But, hey , that is not what I will do . My last few jeans , all bought with my money…….(actually you know the worth of your money , when you stop earning I guess), have to be mine , and not get donated to someone who will enjoy the fruits of my hard labour .
That’s , what am trying to do ….to chase my dreams , to do all I want to. To escape my prospects of marriage…currently. Whom do you get married to? A guy all in smiles for you, nattily dressed and trying to find out, how good a cook are u? That’s all he wants to know…..doesn’t matter what u expect out of him. If he likes your looks, your family background, and your expertise on the range of dishes you can get him in minutes, you are declared all perfect to be the ideal wife. He will chase you, call you up at the strangest of hours to sugar talk, not knowing what to do to impress, to get the cook he wants. Till one fine day , you gather the guts to be rude and tell him to get lost . Leave me alone.
That’s what I am right now. Alone with my problems getting stacked more and more everyday. And I am walking…..walking …...walking. Now all I know is that I have to get it done, times running out , and my fight continues.
To win or to loose, time is the best judge. Let it take its time and decide.
Chase thy dream…………..